The last four years, I have become accustomed to "see you laters". I have never liked them but they have gotten easier. I have become more comfortable about missing out on the day to day going ons at home, the girl's dance recitals, birthday parties, shopping with my mom, or discussing politics with my dad. I have become a pro at goodbyes...which is saying something in my family which gets together for Sunday night dinner EVERY Sunday night.
This goodbye though was very difficult and there is no way to sugar coat it. The natural sadness that comes with a goodbye was compounded by a seven year old niece who newly understand the concept of time (and how long 10 months is), the fact that I am moving half way across the world to an unfamiliar country, and the fact that I have been home with my family for three months with the privilege of being involved in our day to day activities. I even picked Peyton up from daycare everyday! I had easy access to every person in my family, whenever I wanted them...even my brother in law.
So my goodbyes last night with the girls and my sisters and today at the airport with my parents, were some of the most heart wrenching ones yet. Seven year old (and five year old) sobbing, proud parents, and a very anxious Betsy made for lots and lots of tears.
But, I survived because what other option do I have? I can't back out now. My bags are packed. My tickets bought. My paycheck deposited. Turning back was simply impossible.
Usually, I try to end my blog posts with a resolution. Some words of wisdom, promises of improvement, etc. Tonight, I am not going to do that. I am excited...so excited. But right now, I just have to let myself be a little sad. Anyway, I don't start in Kyiv until the 14th-I have LOTS of time to get over being sad. But friends and readers out there, I do have one request from you.
I know myself and I know what this experience is going to do to me. I am going to grow beyond what I can even imagine right now BUT, it will not come without some growing pains. So, do me a favor: reach out to me, ask to skype, write me a letter or an email, send me a Facebook message. Check in. And it doesn't have to be today (actually PLEASE not today :)) but in the next few weeks and months just check in. I want to share my experience with you all but I also want to feel as if I am a part of life at home still as well, so keep me involved!
Most of these are Snapchats because who would ever take nice pictures while their makeup is running all over the place?
In case you are curious, here are my travel plans for the next few days.
Right now, I am on a plane en route to Amsterdam. From there, I will fly to Oslo and then to Trondheim, Norway to spend a few days with my best friend who is student teaching in Norway. Then, next Tuesday I will fly back through Oslo (I have an 8 hour layover-if you are in Olso let me know!). Then, I will spend the night in the Amsterdam airport before I head to Kyiv for orientation. I will move into my new apartment on the 16th and 17th of September and then I will start teaching on the 18th.
So, I guess the adventure begins.